Absolution (Post #1)

For fifteen years I have wanted to travel the seas, to marvel at the beauty of the vast blue emptiness. To feel the mist, to breathe the cleanest air, to open my mind and body to a world that defines the freedom of nature. I've wanted to ride the waves on a majestic white ship and sail for days and days with no destination. The water would be the bed I slept on, the road I traveled with and the wind my guiding direction. My tethers would be cut and I would be unraveled from any worry or responsibility.

Instead for the past twenty years I've been land ridden, to live in the filth of a dirty city, inhaling the never-ending smog of corruption and glutton. Chained to the desk, only able to imagine the world outside my deadpan window. People tell me to learn to love the city for that is where I am destined to spend my life. Have they been brainwashed to accept the perception of this city as something more than a prison, a tomb? I see the truth, the single ray of light cutting through the heavy clouds, shining down at the sea as the only exit to a new life.

Ever since I was born, the city was black and gritty. Corruptive politics and law breakers owned the city, controlling the essence of the market, forcing many people to work horrible jobs for a meager life. Those lucky enough to be born in the higher caste lived a false life of fame and fortune, but only at the price of despicable greed. I was told a long time ago, the city used to be much different than it is today. I was told to believe that the sun shined through the smog, that people had smiles on their faces. Is this believable?

If I was a painter I would paint this city all sorts of shades of gray, with shadows occupying most of the canvas. There would be no trees, no animals, no real sign of life at all, just a bleak gray brick wall, preventing those with aspiration and dreams to keep them hidden inside, until the wall broke apart.

Is there no room for the inspired, for the creative and the bold in this world? I refuse to believe that such concepts exist, and that my chained existence must be broken free. Those individuals who have built the ships that sail the seas, did they realize the barrier of absolution they would break? Is it possible to separate that which I have fallen upon to that which I long to fly to? I must escape the tyranny that befalls the weak-minded and corrupt, and find my place in the world that bestows the chance to explore my passions and zealous nature.

To be continued...

Patience

Do you stare down the mind's eye?

Why does excitement of the seed wither soil

but patience sprouts an oak?

It is best to sit behind the curtain

and watch the sun unravel through the veil,

because the light that you are not ready to see

can be the end of a life that was meant to be.

Stuck In Between Two

Two are one, both know not

One does good, the other doth corrupt

Hand mends hearts, hand pulls strings

When one departs, the other sings

Ace of Hearts, King of Queens

Hand reaches out, hand reaches in

One stays devout, the other brings sin

And the mind does not know the difference within.

Opening Newly Discovered Doors

This post is in response to a post written by Katie W. found here called "The More Your Learn, the Less You Know".

In her post, she discusses the fact that as soon as you think you know something, there is another piece of the puzzle that unfolds which reveals more questions than answers.

"It is as if learning one new fact or one new idea or a new point of view just opens up a world of unexplored territory and other possibilities."

It's amazing to think that such a personal quest for the truth only brings us more questions to seek the answer too. But hasn't this been the case since the beginning of man? If it wasn't for Aristotle's curiosity to learn more about the human anatomy, where would medicine and surgery be today? If it wasn't for Da Vinci's fascination in machinations would the industrial revolution been so different?

Everyone searches for answers, and the fascination of such curiosity opens up new doors to things that seemed solved and complete. Such is the way of life, and it could be said that the way Katie feels, is the way humans have been feeling since the Stone Age. It is an experience I can say I have had the chance of encountering as well. It is an event in our lives that makes us stronger for the future.

Trying to Find Something That's There

Everywhere you go, everything you see and everyone you meet impacts the way you live. Being able to absorb all of this sensory information is something our brain does very well. Whether what we see or do is important to us, is determined by the impact on what it has on ourselves.

If everything is out there for the taking, why do we continue to search for what is in front of us? It is a blessing (as well as a curse) that we are given the ability to distinguish things, and be able to choose what we believe is best for us. However there are many times where the choices that are given to us are too great, and because of such over-saturation, people are prone to becoming lost and confused.

If I wanted to go grab a bite to eat, within the same mile I have ten different choices. It depends on what I'm in the mood for and how much I am willing to spend on a specific meal that is whetting my appetite.

Choices like these can be fairly simple, but when there is a man or woman that you want to become a part of your life, whether they be a trustworthy friend, someone you share your love and passion with, or the rest of your life, these choices are the ones that test our sense of personal intuition.

There are millions of people in the world, and I'm not saying that there is the one and only perfect person for you in that group. There may be in fact hundreds of people that are perfect for you, but we do not get a chance to get to know everyone last one of them and choose which is best. It is the deep-seeded trust in our intuition that helps us choose that one special person that seems the best fit for us.

The same can be said about friends, jobs, faith, interests and so much more. It can be hard trying to find something that's there, but we are all on the same team, trying to find the things that make us happy.